转眼就各奔东西

大学生涯虽匆匆过去，也没有很浓厚的同窗革命情感，但我终究是非常喜欢我的这班同学的。
所以星期一的毕业茶叙，我就带着送别的心情去了。

有时想，若没有选双主修，是否就可以和这班人一起抛方帽子毕业了呢？

然而历史终归历史，选择终究是选择。历史没有‘如果’，选择没有‘后悔’。

我且带着珍重的心情完成我最后一个学期的课程罢。

 

弟兄姐妹名言录

看到有人在课室里搬桌椅，问黄秉赋：里面那个谁来的？
黄：好像是沛翀。
我：然后你就让他自己一个人在里面搬东西，你自己在外面打电话？！！
黄：（镇定地）你是不是觉得我是狼—心—狗—肺……
我：好像差不多……
—
翀: 我不会跟你们去吃饭，因为（理由）。
依玲: （指着电梯瞪大眼睛凶狠地说）你走！我们是不会留你的！
翀: 我不稀罕！
—
很兴奋地跟黄秉赋的小组讲他早上的那个狼心狗肺，他们一脸的平静/冷静/被冷到/没有反应。
黄：（镇定地）你看，他们一点反应也没有……but thank you for trying so hard.

 

毕业……

我还没要毕业
不过那些可爱的、我刚熟络的同学们就要毕业了。
有些伤感呢

所以我不会后悔那天厚脸皮地唱了五音不全的《再见》和《细水长流》
在一天之内排练了上台唱，之前根本不知道有《再见》这首歌
我觉得我们已经很厉害了
呵呵呵
最重要是，我想珍重地和亲爱的同学们说声再见……

 

Spacers!

I know I’m going to miss NUH Adolescents’ Hub when I graduate from NUS! We volunteers (aka “Spacers”, for the lack of a more creative name, according to Benjy our social worker in-charge) had pizza in the cabin and had to play games to make losers eat the leftover food. We ended up so stuffed! But the session was rather fun, getting to know each other Benjy ended up talking about creepy supernatural incidences in the hospital which gave us creeps all over. (But, evil spirits/ghosts or not, I have Jesus Christ in me and He is my protector!)

Lovely NUH volunteers gathering aside, I also had lunch with my Chinese studies project group mates – our first lunch together! I was telling my dad the other day that I didn’t really know my classmates all through my first three years in university, and now after I got to know them and love them, we are all going to graduate. It’s such a beautiful, sad thing really.

 

Grad mag submission

珍重道别吧，因我们也许永不再相见

犹记得小学毕业时，大家都哭得稀里哗啦。本来没什么感觉，但也难免被周围一片感伤的气氛感染。唱起毕业歌：“唱—起我们的歌—来/不要—为别离悲哀”，眼泪反而就啪啦啦地掉下来了。坐上舅舅的车离开校园的那一刻，我记得我望见学校体育馆里一簇一簇的同学们，互相拥抱、珍重道别，自己的泪水也泛滥不止。然而回到家中以后，又好像什么也没发生过，只有在若干时日以后，和妈妈一起看着毕业典礼上、一群十二岁的小朋友哭成一团的照片，觉得好笑。

经历了中学毕业、初院毕业，大家的情绪再不如从前那么激动。大概是因为我们都知道新加坡很小，要聚会、回母校是很容易的事，也知道资讯科技发达，可以利用MSN、电邮之类的通讯工具继续保持联系。时至今日，我们毕业了以后，还有Facebook这种东西让我们继续偷窥朋友们的生活照，从大家的status当中知道谁听什么音乐了、看什么新闻了、快乐了、烦恼了、找到工作了、恋爱了、结婚了、生小孩了……我们现在的毕业，似乎已不再是那么令人感伤、生离死别的一回事了。

不过，真的是如此吗？

我们就是一群又一群的小小鱼儿，从各方各地的小池里被放进国大中文系这个大池子里，接下来，就是打开闸门，把我们放入大海的时候了。也许我们有些已经养精蓄锐地要往上游去跃龙门，也许有些愿意在浅水域里安宁地泅泳，也许有些仍然眷恋温暖安全的育苗池。大家最后各自游往不同的方向，也许仍然能和朋友们同游，但也有可能永远不再相见。可曾想过吗？你曾和身边的那位安静的同学一起为了作业并肩作战，你们聊过哪位老师的说过的一些笑话，你们聊过朋友们的八卦，你们在食堂里一起合作抢座位……如果她有一天游往远方，你们就永远不再相见。


释然也好，快乐也好，感伤也好，淡然也好，我们都珍重道别吧，因我们也许永不再相见。毕竟，我们的道路不知还有没有交错的时候；身边那位安静的同学，不知是否只能是回忆里的那抹朦胧而瑰丽的影子。

赠2010年国大中文系荣誉班的战友们

 

We love because He loves us!

It has been a very richly blessed day today. I’m greatly thankful to God for blessing us with this wonderful church community where we honestly and openly love each other. I am personally blessed with loving brothers and sisters who are both kind and wise in their company. Every time I think of the idea that we will be a group to grow old together, I feel filled with joy and anticipation for the future~

 

Trust

If one expects to have confidantes – trustworthy friends, one must first be a trustworthy person. Allow your friends to know that they can take your words as it is – that it would be minimally coloured by your own perspectives (and certainly not distorted to your own purpose). For anyone to become close to a person, they must first be able to trust that person would be able to appreciate and uphold the amount of care and concern given to him with integrity.

 

My relaxation

I gave myself a day off!

Since there are no commitments for today (no class, no meeting yay!), I went back to NYJC to visit my dear Lin Laoshi. Finally had the time to chat with her after visiting for so many times =) I thank my dear Lord that Lin laoshi is unusually free today because the J2s are having Prelim exams and she doesn’t have to take classes nor invigilate; that I have free time to visit in the time that she’s free =)

As my conversation with Lin laoshi drew to a close, someone came and slapped me on the shoulder. Why am I not surprised? It’s our beloved Joyce Chua xiaojie XD Walked with her through the library, marvelling at how things seem largely similar yet contain nuances of change (like additional study tables to the empty area in front of the half-moon stage) and how the memories of my years in NY spent in the library came flooding back.

I told Joyce that there was this time I was sleeping in the library and there was a group of boys who were making a whole lot of noise at the desk behind mine. I woke up and shushed them to silence so that I can sleep.

Had a little stroll around J8 checking out the shops briefly. Finally found a cute little stall at which I bought my first ever wall decal sticker set! Behold! I’m quite pleased with the outcome. Now my wall doesn’t look so pathetically blank =)